Trapped...

Lately, I have felt trapped. Trapped in this skin, trapped in this head, and trapped in this life, with these experiences that shouldn't be mine. I feel like I'm suffocating and this space I'm in keeps getting smaller and smaller, and all I can do is curl up in a ball and pray that someone will rescue me. I don't understand why I feel like this, I just do. I feel like I have been sucked into this blackhole. And I don't understand. I feel Aline and scared and confused. Asking the same things on a daily basis... who am I? Do I matter? And is there someone out there who can rescue me? A night in shining armor, Dr. Who? Anyone? I wish that all this crap never happened and that things can go back to normal. What happened to that blissful life I had just two months ago? I miss it. I want it back. I just want to be happy.

Ok... I know what I must do, but how do I do it? Do I even deserve it? I need to turn to Christ as in Jesus Christ, I need him to be the center of my life and is atonement to push me through this, no... not push, guide me. I want him to hug me and whisper in my ear while in his embrace "Abigail, I love you and if you let me, I will carry you." I just need and tern for a friend who will be my beacon of light and make sure I keep my thoughts toward my savior and my father in heavens plan for me. Why can't it be that easy? Why is it easier said than done? I don't understand.

New Month Resolution

WOW it has been FAR to long since the last time I posted.....  so a lot has happened! I've been CRAZY busy! My family went to Colorado wchich was awesome... and I am doing a service project I'm making roses out of plastic spoons and am going to give them to cancer patients in memory of my Papa, and I babysit triplets which is a BALL! They always are the highlight of my week :) Hmmmmmm I have been updating my photography blog so if you want to see some pics by me click the link ;) http://abigailodom.blogspot.com/search?updated-max=2013-07-03T12:40:00-07:00&max-results=7 PLUS I did a camp for my cello which was AWESOME I got invited to join a high level cello ensemble which is a HUGE deal to me! SUmmer has done me well :)
-- Life... is bliss ♥

P.S. for my new month resolution I am going to try to post every day for this month at least hopefully longer! :)

I'm back

 It's been so long since the last time I wrote. Sorry about that. It's been a crazy time for me lately. Just one trial or challenge or impossible task after another. BUT it's ok now my life is FINALLY regaining order.. I think. I just have to push on and keep in mind that life... it's bliss

Hmm.....

Well........ I'm sitting here.... at school... bored. Nothing to do. So, I thought I might as well do something useful and so here I am! Blogging! :) I have been thinking a lot about life and it really is bliss... through all the bad and evil and dangers and sadness there is bliss... if you stick it out and go through your trials you will find bliss! So yep thats it! Bye bye Life is bliss!

Long time so see!

Sorry I haven't posted in SO LONG! I have been crazy busy.... well not lately I guess.. I had knee surgery on Thursday Oct 4 and passed out that saturday and almost had to go to the hospital.. scary right?!

Well.... here all is was has happened.

on Wed. my uncle died.. it was terrible.
then on Thurs. was my surgery which was pretty good
on thurs-fri friends came over and kept me company
on saturday I passed out
sunday.. was good not a whole lot happened
the monday was my uncles funeral which was a lot harder than I thought it would be
tues was a movie night with my friend Maddie. which was super fun!
and finally today... today is going to be crazy! I am making chocolate chip cookies right now, then I'm going to get a new permit, lost mine, then ASL so fun! but it's going to be SO HARD!! because I missed one day.. yep this'll be an adventure haha! and that is what makes life bliss..... the exciting adventures the things that go so terribly wrong (like passing out) and the things that so so right everything... it's all bliss you just have to find the silver lining.

Ph-Ph-Photo shoot?!

So for like the first time, I was the model not the photographer!  This is a rare thing for me.. I hate hate HATE getting my picture taken in a photoshoot setting.. well in most settings really. But it was for a dear friend's project so I figured I would do it. And it was super fun! Next.. I am doing a shoot. This month. I will put pictures of both up when I get them.

Some Pictures...

 Ya.. I really love nature and ya I took these.. :)

Life...

Well life has been pretty InSaNe!!!!! Sorry it's taken me so long to repost.. I have had a crazy busy lately. But it's been awesome! I have gotten a lot better at cello, and I have been taking a lot of pictures lately.

My family went on a cabin trip a few weeks ago and I have to find a way to load those pictures on my computer because my card reader broke, but I will try and figure it out tonight so I can put up some current photos (= good times.. So I hope all of my lovely readers are having an awesome week.. just remember... TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!!!! Life... is bliss

Sugery?!

Yep, I have to have knee sugery, yes I am only 15, and yes I am absolutaly terrified. BUT, I know that I will be ok. It will put me out of soccer, and golf, and every other sport I play but it's ok.. Because I know that so long as I am taking care of myself, I will be ok.. Oh and today WILL be a good day because I will make it a good day no matter what because well.... life, is bliss

Please.... Summer..... SLOW DOWN!!!!!!!

So my summer vacation is like pretty much OVER! This is pretty depressing. AND I have Honors Geometry for 0 hour! At 6:45 in the morning! I have math soooo much. But... I have MORE electives than anything... and I got ALL the electives I wanted...... well other than ceramics but what ever that isnt a big deal.. I am going to have a CrAzY schedule this school year.. I hope I have time to blog but idk... So here is my schedule

SO my day school shedule
*Wakes up at 4 A.M.*
*In class at 6:30* 0- Honors Geometry (DEATH!!) Oh did I mention I have the WORST teacher?? Yep I have great luck don't I?!
1-Orchestra (Im still only in the intermediate one.. )= but we are going to change that soon)
2-Culinary Arts..... AHHH Food I have a feeling I am going to LOVE LOVE LOVE this class
3-Seminary.. AH I LOVE THIS CLASS, if you don't know what it is, it is and LDS class for High Schoolers, we learn about the scriptures.. and if you attend all four years you will have read, the HOLY BIBLE/ PEARL OF GREAT PRICE (NEW TESTAMENT ONE YEAR, OLD TESTAMENT NEXT YEAR) , BOOK OF MORMON, and DOCTRINE AND CONEVENTS. It is amazing and really makes me feel really relaxed and good.
4-Chemestry... also with a very HARD teacher, but I will push through it as best as I can ;)
*LUNCH*!!!!!!! OH this is going to be my FAVORITE hour of the day I can tell you that now.. especially if I get it with my best friends.. and the guy I like ^_^ that would be GREAT
5-Intro to Digital Studio.. or basically photography... and seeing how I want to be a photographer I am PUMPED
6-Honors Sophomore English... Good thing I love writing... just NOT reading so this will be... fun?
*Waits for ride home after school and hangs out with friends while waiting*

THEN if it's not soccer or golf season, I dont have a gig for photography not a MON or WED....
*gets home from a LLLLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGG day of school*
do homework, study (maybe unless blogging and facebook and photography and music call me away just kidding I will study)
Clean room if needed
if I still have time, hang with friends, or take some snaps, eat fooooood, or blog
then crash for the night

BUT.... if its soccer or golf (yes I golf.. kinda) season....
Hours of practice in the HOT Az. sun
THEN.....
*gets home from a LLLLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGG day of school*
do homework, study (maybe unless blogging and facebook and photography and music call me away just kidding I will study)
Clean room if needed
if I still have time, hang with friends, or take some snaps, eat fooooood, or blog
then crash for the night

BUT...... if it is a MON or WED........
 *gets home from a LLLLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGG day of school*
do homework, study (maybe unless blogging and facebook and photography and music call me away just kidding I will study)
Clean room if needed
Go to American Sign Language night classes at Mesa Community College for a couple hours
THEN go home and do that homework
THEN..... crash for the night

BUT.... if I have a photography gig for my internship
 *gets home from a LLLLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGG day of school*
do homework, study (maybe unless blogging and facebook and photography and music call me away just kidding I will study)
Clean room if needed
go to GIG
THEN... come home maybe edit a few pictures if it isn't to late
then crash for the night

AND.... weekends
sleep
sleep some more
babysit hopefully
photography
hang with friends
maybe a stake dance...? (church dance, second saturday of the month, super fun)
study do homework
oh and did I say sleep?

YUP! That is pretty much what I have to look forward to this year.. I am excited though because this means I will be busy and doing things I love
I can't wait for school to start this is going to be an exciting year, full of adventures.
SO remember... LIFE IS BLISS!!!!!

My Family

 Meet.... my family.. :)

Life.... is bliss

Today

Today will be a good day, you wanna know why? Because I am determined to make it a good day no matter what, I challenge you to do the same. Why? Because Life.... it bliss.

Crafty Me

Well.. I LOVE crafts, in case you haven't noticed. I made these T-Shirt shrug, cardagin things. I really REALLY want a proffesional quality camera (a Cannon EOS Rebel).. which is a LOT of money. So I am starting to sell the t-shirt shrugs and sandals I also decorate and/ or make. Being crafty really comes in handy.. :) I will put pictures of the sandals and shrugs up soon. :) Well never forget life is bliss

My family

I just realized I have NO pictures of my family... and they are the main attribute to my blissful life! How can I be so insane as to forget to put pictures of them or even describe/ talk about them! I feel SMRT (yes that typo is supposed to be there {smart})

Well, like I said in my last post, I am with my Nana so I am on her computer, which means I have no pictures I want to share on it.. so when I am home (possibly tonight) for a bit, I will put them up, but for now I will just give an introduction to my wonderful-smart-amazing-funny-crazy-loud-loving family.

Well, lets start with the oldest membet, my daddy. He is so amazing and supportive in everything I do. He listens and helps me. He is like WAY smart {which is a bit of an understatment.. he is a genious}. I am very crafty and tend to come up with some very crazy projects to try, and he is always there by my side helping me, buying me what I need, giving tips on how to improve it, and complementing it, telling me it looks amazing even if I know it looks horrible and was a failure. He is loving and has raised me well... let's just say when i get married, I want a husband like my daddy.

Next, my mommy. She is amazing and beautiful. She is really smart and is always there when I need her. She has this amazing sixth sense, everytime I am upset and just acting like nothing is wrong{which I am good at} she just knows something is up, and she will ask me what is on my mind until I spill. I want to be a mom and wife like her.

Now on to the siblings.. ( I have four or five including my sister-in-law)

First and Oldest is Maegan. She is so amazing and wonderful and beautiful. I love her like a lot. She is a nuse at the LDS Hospital in Utah.. yep she lives in Utah and I live here in Arizona... so we never see eachother any more... I miss her a lot, and always pray that she is safe and happy up there. Did I mention she is musical? Well ya, she has an amazing voice and plays the piano beautifully! I wish I could play like her.

Then for my one and only brother, next oldest, DJ, short for Doug Junior{my dad is the senior Doug}. He is super amazing and nice.. he also doesn't live with me, well he is married, but he lives super close to me which is cool not every little sister has that after her brother get married. He is really funny and always tries to cheer me up when I'm upset... it seems like his favorite line when I am mad is, "DON'T GET MAD.... GET GLAD!!" It makes me laugh everytime because he says it in a super goofy outragous voice, he is a jokester... :)

Then there is Paige, she is super funny and amazing and smart. She is a teacher... so she knows EVERYTHING. It seems like we fight a lot, yet we can only stay mad at eachother for a total of 2 minutes after we are done fighting.

Next, is Haley, she is my sister-in-law.. married to DJ of course... I don't know her super well but if DJ loves her and she makes him happy then I love her. She is amazing at piano and singing and is really funny.

Then to Courtney, I am really close to Court. We share a room so we talk A LOT. It's sad though, she is going to school at NAU next year in Flagstaff so I will never see her. But she is an amazing.. she is my sister just older than me. So of course I am that annoying little sister who always steals stuff from her and is annoying and always tries to hang out with her and her friends..... but it is just because I want to be like her.. she is nice and funny and popular {even if she doesnt admit it, she is}.

And then me, but you already know me :)...

So there you have it, there is the insane, crazy, loud, nice, funny, loving Odom family. I love all of them so much and wouldn't be able to survive the crazy teenage, high school life without them.. I wouldn't trade them of the world.
Life...... is BLISS

Time Well Spent

Well, I am spending a week or two with my Nana, she had surgery and I am here taking care of her... I couldn't think of a better way to spend my time than with my Nana. I love her and this has been a blast. And as a bonus I also get to know my aunt who I have never really known. It is great! Best two weeks of summer.... :) Well as always... life.. is bliss